its a good morning

So I have gone from the point in pregnancy of being mildly contemplative to now just being. I do not spend a whole lot of time thinking about how I can change the world or myself these days, so that makes blogging somewhat boring doesn't it? I feel peaceful today though and maybe even a little bored. I have not been bored in ages but despite not having done a thing to get ready for this baby I am wandering around wondering what to do with myself. I think I need to group my thoughts and start working on the projects that must be done...namely moving the bedrooms all around, getting painting done, and making sure I have what I need for the new little one. I am going to work on getting my diapers refreshed for a second child, and I know I need some of the big things again. Not knowing the sex of this child makes it hard to really commit to any thing though. So I just put everything off. oh well that is all.

ballerinas

right now I have not one but two ballerinas. Maggie and Francis, both in tutus, are spinning around the living room to twinkle twinkle little star. It is one of the funniest thing I have seen...at least for today.

31 weeks

in an ideal world that would mean 9 weeks left. I reality, for me, that means 10 or 11 weeks. Regardless, the baby will be here soon. The past few months have flown by and all of us in this house are really excited to meet our newest addition. the kids in particular can't wait although Canaan gave me some specifications. " Mommy are you going to scream?" (in regards to labor) I said maybe and he said "I will be going to Nana's when you have the baby I do not want to be around for that" He hates unfamiliar sounds, so much that he probably won't come near the baby in the beginning if it is crying. Maggie on the other hand would probably choose to be up close and personal. She continues to refer to the baby that is in her tummy as Gabby and I am sure when my baby is born hers will be as well. Now Francis is about as clueless as any 2 yr old would be. He still thinks that my popped out belly button is the baby and that is enough for him. He has grown up so much over the past few months though that I expect him to fall into the big brother roll pretty quickly. I feel ok, some days I am really tired others are not so bad. I get overwhelmed WAY to easily and even if I have just one thing scheduled for the day that is more than enough for me. today I plan on cleaning and that will make it a successful day even if I only get one room done. I love my family, my husband and Grammy continue to pick up my slack and I am spoiled. I have crazy dreams most nights...last night I dreamed that on top of having a baby we got a couple of foster kids and adopted some from Haiti. I was trying to nurse every one and it was not working out. A few nights before that I birthed 8 at one time.... i wish.

i am a fan

J.K. Rowling is a FANTASTIC story teller. I just finished the third book and I am now an official fan. It was a delightful read and I cannot wait to start book four. I get what all the hype is about. This is fun.

lazy lazy

Today Canaan was home from school so it really felt like another weekend day. I acted like it was another weekend day. We hung out and it was real chill around here. I have said it before but that seems to be my life these days...chill. I don't get over excited about much. 10 weeks to go. I think that snail pace for 10 weeks may be a bit excessive so hopefully something will motivate me. Lianne and I have been looking at "crafty" things to do and I think a project is in sight. I am excited about that! I do not have skills but I want to try. I can learn. I know I can.

On another note, we had let Canaan start eating a little gluten over the holidays mostly because I had not been putting a huge emphasis on food. I was wanting to be under the impression that it was fine but it was not. He was getting fidgety and flapping in ways that we have not seen in a long time. the good news is that I learned again that there is a reason he is on a gfcf diet...the bad news is I think the whole family needs to follow suit now. There is just no way for me to sustain making 2 meals at every meal plus Canaan is starting to notice he eats differently. He is not happy about that so I think if I can get creative about the gf stuff because it affects all of us, then I will make decent meals. I hope.

brain dead

It is official...there is nothing there. As of right now I have such a hard time forming any decent thoughts or caring about things I normally try to invest myself in. This makes it very difficult to hold a conversation. I have not spent much time engaging others outside of my immediate household... if this means you are getting ignored I offer my apologies and say I will come back to life in about 4 months. I look forward to that time although being a home body has had it's benefits too. Life is moving at a very slow pace, my world feels very small. This happens every pregnancy which makes me think it must be normal for me and even ok. I dream of things like running, having energy and not having acne. Seriously. On the other hand I dream of meeting our newest Meyers baby and am excited for what he/she will bring to our family. I am 3/4 of the way there. Things have been hard but manageable. Let's see if I can get through the last trimester gracefully. Context clues would say no. Oh well.

up and at 'em

up since 4:30am, 2 cups of coffee and some toast....is it nap time yet?