I come home from the y in the morning with 1 million thoughts in my head and wanting to talk about all the amazing things I have discovered since I woke up at 4-5am...alas it is all exercise induced but welcomed none the less. My youngest is now 19 months old. In the past 7 years I have never gotten a child to this point without being pregnant again. I actually am starting to feel my own identity reemerging as I get my body back, become more fit, and intentional on all levels. Life feels steady today, and for that I am thankful. God is present to me in my normal day to day and that feels good. I am always wanting to be thrown against the coals because it is there I feel the refiners fire, so to be able to just say "yeah my life feels stable" makes me question if God is still with me. Crazy. Honestly I think the real joy is learning how to invite Him into my day to day as I mother, run, love my husband and try to be a friend. His voice gets particularly small when I feel steady on my feet but I want to feel closest to Him in the steadiness.
Today I am thankful that a baby in Arkansas is home with her family with a cancer that is not as "serious" as was believed last week. God still moves, and the Lamb is on His throne!
by the way I am enjoying my first cup of black coffee right now. I have finally grown up : )
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black is the way to go :)
ReplyDelete"try to be a friend" you are a great friend. give yourself more credit for that one :)
loveyou.